With You I walk this narrow way.

Ha.

Had the weirdest dream last night.

Even though I slept for 4 hours plus.

But the 4 hours of sleep brought to me a dream that is so vivid up till now.

Gosh I didnt expect that character to appear.

Never in a million years.

The actions she did and the things she said.

Still ringing my mind.

So clear.

So clear.

One sentence she said which stuck a bullet to my chest.

Haha but its all a dream.

Damn whats happening man.

Anyway just caught the family man by nicholas cage online.

Its a really moving film which depicts how simplicity in life can bring u the greatest joy.

Yeah simplicity is what we should all long for.

But where to find where to find?

I'm feeling so many things right now.

But I dunno how and where to start here.

Actually I dun even know what the heck I'm doing sometimes.

Confused boy indeed.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I just wanna go to a secluded beach somewhere and scream at the top of my lungs.

The first 3 hours of my day today in camp ie. 6am-9am was HORRIBLE.

Everything that could go wrong went wrong alamak.

And I'm feeling so sick I can hardly sit up straight.

Must perservere.

Hate This Place - Goo Goo Dolls

Gone away
Who knows where you been
You take all your lies
And wish them all away

I somehow doubt
We'll ever be the same
There's too much poison
And confusion on your face

Can you feel it
I didn't mean it
Can I see you
What are we doin'
I think I love you
but I ain't sayin' nothin' you don't know

Hold on dreamaway
You're my sweet charade

Take your time
Move yourself to me
Yeah I can take your lies
Until you fall away

You know I'm lost
Hiding in your bed
No I don't think it's wrong
It's just gone to my head

Can you feel it
I didn't mean it
Can I see you
What are we doin'
I think I love you
but I ain't sayin' nothin' you don't know

Hold on dreamaway
You're my sweet charade

Hey whatchya do to me
Would you come back to me
Yeah I can't do another day
I'm not certain of it anyway
I ain't messin' with another life
Can I get along without you
Tell me lies
That you know I need

Hold on dreamaway
You're my sweet charade

Hold on dreamaway
You're my sweet charade

Hold on dreamaway
Hold on dreamaway

..

This song is awesome.

Wow cg today was great.

Loved it when worship got carried away to almost half hour.

Even when the mountains tremble
And a thousand fall
I will stand with you
My Jesus
Take my all

A fews back I realised that there was a termite infestation in my room.

So my mum had some guys get rid of the problem immediately.

But the down side was that I had to shift ALL my stuff in my cupboards and drawers and everything else to my brother's room.

And my things had been lying there ever since for quite some time now as I'm pretty lazy.

Lol today my mum threatened to throw everything away if I did not improve the messy condition of my brother's room so I had no choice.

Went through a lot of items in the bags.

Found so many toys and stickers when I was a lot younger.

Embarrassing cds and books which I used to own and indulge in.

And a lot a lot of notes letters cards and whatnot from my schooling days.

Oh man some of them were sooo old they dated back when I was in primary one.

I used to have this autograph book which everyone in the class would write a profile introduction and message in it.

I was reading through the messages and it was hilarious.

Lol we were so childish back then and we would classify our friends under 4 catagories.

Best friends, good friends, neutral friends, enemies.

Then everyone would place me under a good friend at least cause they were writing on my book and wanted to give me face hahaha.

Hoho ling if u are reading this I found a christmas card which u sent to me in p5 and u were praising your own handwriting its v lame but funny.

And then there was this stack of jc notes and cards.

There were tonnnnnnes of stuff in this stack, due to band concerts and stuff.

Was reading through everything and it really brought a smile to my face.

I could sincerely say that I had a lot of fun in jc and I'm thankful for everyone whom I got to know back in school.

Of course its quite sad at the same time cause most of the messages dont mean anything now since I've drifted apart from most of them.

Haha at the age of 17-18 we were still childish and growing and everyone kinda made silly pacts and promises to each other which we could not fulfill at the end of the day.

Its funny yet interesting la to see how everyone has evolved to the person he or she is now.

In terms of looks, character and maturity.

I personally was one of the most childish and most irritating person ever I admit.

Gosh.

I really hope everyone is leading a fulfilling life now somehow.

Anyway.

Was looking through my thick stack of school work and notes too.

And it dawned upon me how bad I struggled through my studies in jc.

So distracted I was back then regarding so many things.

But truly God gave me the grace for my final exam and I thank Him for that.

I used to reprimand myself for being so poor academically cause I missed out on many chances of scholarships and good schools.

Then I realised that I would not be the same person now had I not go through the difficult times.

Boy.

Growing up is such a pain in the ass.

But we cant deny that it was a blast at the same time.

I love my off days.

Cause truly its an escape from the real world.

And its awesome beyond description.

Just now a thought came to my mind which really scared me.

What if one day I just slip away from His presence.

I will prob attempt to lead my "fulfillng" life but I can imagine how empty I will be.

And excuses will flood my mind and thought.

Yet I cant find my way home.

Indeed horrible.

Oh gosh.

The happening is seriously one of the most disappointing movie I've ever watched.

The trailer looked sooooo fantastic.

But the movie is pure crap.

Luckily I watched it without paying.

Heh heh.

Truly God is good.