OMGGGG.

I'm finally out of s1sp3c!!!!

Really really really really x1000000001 very happy bout it WAHAHAHA.

I dunno.

The place's more like a chalet cause everything is damn nice and new.

But I have enough of school life I need outta there.

All in all.

I've met super nice ppl in my platoon.

And my section's damn awesome as well.

Nicer ppl than my bmtc ones.

But well at the end of the day.

I can safely say that I had a lot a lot more fun back in tekong.

Lol.

There was never one day in tekong where I did not spend my time laughing my ass off.

Haaaii I miss those days.

Anyway I'm out of s1sp3c so woohooo.

Even tho I'm dead tired now cause we had a 28k overnight march like ytd.

Wah its really so tiring that at around 2-3am we all start falling alseep while marching.

U can literally see everyone march left and right cause everyone sleeping liao.

Tmd somemore when we finish the next morning we did not have any rest at all.

All the way until evening time when we packed out bags and left the place.

THEY TREAT US LIKE ANIMALS CAN.

Goshh.

Lol.

But I'm still thankful to have some ppl around la.

Like iggy and wk and joel.

Haha still can make me laugh which is good.

At least I'm not so damn bored in camp.

Haaaa.

Alrighty then I gtg liao book in again for tonight cause theres some s1sp3c anniversary thing tml which is damn damn dumb cause they're forcing everyone to go back to celebrate wad the heck.

Even tho we alr graduated.

Lol but whatever la as long as I have gotten my rank hehehe.

Rank = more $$

Ok bye.

Finally.

I snapped out of the shit world I drenched myself into for the whole week.

Had been incredibly bitter bout the whole uni thing.

And so depressed and lost bout what to do.

Its literally like I fell into a manhole and I know exactly how to get out of it but I'm so damn bloody stunned that I just stone there.

Doesnt help one bit that one of my bunkmates got it.

But thankfully he has been sensitive enough to not mention it around me.

On the outside I just pretend that everything's alright and continue with my everyday work.

But inside I just felt blank and like shit.

I blame myself.

I blame God.

My faith just sank for some reason.

On thurs night while walking back to our campsite after a loooonng day during our fieldcamp.

It was a long walk and it was damn dark so I could not see much.

Only my own footsteps.

Suddenly the hallelujah song from the bennyhinn conference came into my head.

I began singing it in my head.

And tears started rolling down my face but noone could see it cause it was pitch black.

Felt incredibly sorry for just being angry at God.

For obstacles like this.

Remembered how the holy spirit touched me during that song in that conference.

And I began to feel the same holy spirit comforting me that everything's gonna be fine.

More tears started rolling down.

Dunno.

No matter how unsure I am of my future and what courses I'm gonna take.

I know that it will be the best choice for me.

Really.

And I hope u'll feel the same way too if things are not going your way.

Good luck.

On a brighter note.

IM FREAKING PASSING OUT FROM MY FREAKING BSLC COURSE THIS WED WHICH ROCKS.

Ok gtg now book in bye.

Cya everyone on wed HAHA.

Pirates anyone?

=(

I didnt get in.

Doesnt help that this week is so incredibly bad.

Something went terribly wrong in my company and we only booked out this morning can.

Wad the heck.

Im so tired.

Physically and mentally.

I was so close to passing out during my field camp.

Theres still one more in a few days times.

Sian.

Regardless.

I just want to have something to look forward to.

Anything.

I dun seem to have any in my life currently.

Thats damn sad.

Wow.

Today's service was prob one of the best in quite a while.

God's presence was very strong and hit everyone hard.

Felt super overwhelmed by the end.

But its a good feeling.

The message spoke to me in a powerful way.

It made me wanna thirst and hunger more for God eh.

Faith faith faith.

Ok alright.

I cant deny tt I'm quite nervous bout uni posting cause its gonna affect the rest of life.

But I'll leave it to God's hands la.

He knows the best for me.

=D

Haha.

I have the weirdest weirdest dreams during field camps.

Oh man.

Weird as in they are speaking directly to me.

Its nice to have my dreams teach me the right path to take on certain things.

But it really x 100000 sucks to open my eyes and wake up in the middle of the forest I swear.

Gahhh.

Lawl.

I'm emotionally split now.

I'm toking to someone who just made it into a uni choice of hers and another who didnt.

Totally opposite feelings and tones to converse with.

Gahhh it stinks haha.

I hope u'll be alright eh really.

Oh man.

My doomsday is looooomingg just ahead it freaking scares the shit out of me.

Faith faith faith.

Bah goodnight.

Haha.

Where do I run?

When the only thing that I believed in vanishes before my eyes.

Lawl.

I miss the days when I was truly happy.

Life's weird eh.

Almost time for the whole routine thing to play on for the rest of the week.

I'm tired of it.

HAAA BOOKING IN SOON LE.

DEPRESSING.

This weekend is quite nice I gotta just sit down and chill for a sec.

Damn nice for me to recover my thoughts.

Tml will be my last interview for NUS.

Finally everything is gonna be out of my hands.

Shall see whether I'll get into my choices haha no stress no stress -.-

Sian.

Army is very tiring.

I'm gonna have consecutive fieldcamps from next week onwards until I end my course.

SIAO ARH.

I can die lor.

The whole routine and regimentation stuff is driving me nuts I swear.

I need to pack my bag and go out of the country HAHAHA.

Crazy.

Gahh anyway I like the carrie underwood song she sang on american idol tt day I'll stand by you.

Nice nice sia.

Ok nth much le see everyone soon.

GOODBYE MY COMPUTER AND BED AND AIRCON AND NICE FOOD AND HUMANITY.

OMG I NEED TO EAT KFC WHEN I NEXT BOOK OUT.

Ok I shall shutup bye.