Haha didnt update this thing here yesterday cause I was really tired and couldn't think much. Lotsa things happened in these past 2 days. But yeah I was surprisingly really happy yesterday. Its the first time this week(other than my class outing to ecp) that I enjoyed myself so much and really appreciated the company I was with yay.

Woke up late yesterday. Was not planning to go band after last sat's disastrous prac I was scared out of my wits to even step into the band room. I really felt like a trapped bird in a cage. Damn disgusting feeling. Haha anyway george smsed me to go for lunch at cp then can cut hair after that. I was quite surprised that he did that. Haha anyway I met him at 1230 at the mrt station. Well honestly, I didnt know what to expect since its been like a billion zillion trillion years ago since I've gone out with him alone. A little nervous in fact. Haha but yeah it was quite nice leh. I think both of us were a little apprehensive at first but we clicked immediately like we used to last time. Nice feeling la we were really talking shit and insulting each other. Haha then we went to food court to eat and damnit it was crowded like hell. We walked around the place a few times before finding an empty table. Was it coincidence or just fate that it was the same exact table that we used during the national day hol when we were there having lunch(haha I could rmb damn clearly cause it was there that I saw yeekeow with her mum n bro). Haha I was sick already but he drank my soup anyway and caught my gems HOHO HE STARTED SNEEZING LIKE SHIT LATER DAMN WEAK. Yeap after that went to timezone to play for a while we promised to control our spendings and spent bout 5 bucks each playing ghost squad and timecrisis aiyah he wanted to play shooting games only cause its his forte. HOHO but I got addicted to them immediately woot it was really fun. Haha after that we rushed to the hair dresser as it was getting late(i needed to get home to bathe before going out for class outing later). Haha as usual he made me cut first and it was different la the hair at the back is quite long but I like it. Yeap after that it was his turn to cut and aiyah his hair is like how soft and nice so any style also can gel nicely. Lol as we walk back to the mrt station he kept banging into me to knock me to the walls and the dustbins. ASSHOLE. Yeap haha after that I really rushed home as if I were in amazing race cause I was really late.

Hoho anyway reached marina at 515(15 mins late) and jermyn called me when I reached to tell me that he just woke up 5 mins ago from his nap and told me to tell the rest to wait for him. PIG. Haha oh ya I felt quite bad cause I didnt go for band so he had nothing to do from 12 to 5 so I told him to go home and sleep. Yay. Awesome friend. My ass. Haha yeap after that when everyone(erm 19 of us) arrived we took bus 400 to the steamboat buffet place. Lol it was quite sad cause we split up into cliques there as there are 3 tables. My table had me jared nash alan terence george ryan and eddison. Haha quite fun la my table we were doing a lot of shit things like throwing food into the drain(cause too chaota).. erm ok only jared and I did that. But yeah quite nice to catch up with them after soooooooo long. Then we started playing zikopa haidai heizhimabaizhima(ok only me n george) and all sorts of retarded games. Yay so fun. Really brough back memories in sec4 where I was like damn bloody childish and liked to throw paper and peas(during bio lab) at people esp jermyn then when they turn back I'll start doing my own stuff and act normal. HOHO DAMN FUN. Haha then one time I threw my fisherman's friend at jermyn (he was just sitting on my left one aile away) and was caught by my chinese teacher and he suaned me like shit the whole class laughed at me. GO AND DIE LA EVERYONE. Haha anyway after dinner we went to the arcade beside the restaurant and started playing again. Hoho then george and I were looking at each other cause we promised each other that we will not waste anymore money on arcade after this morning. Haha but we still played a bit of time crisis la and I treated him after that cause I really wanted to play somemore DAMN ADDICTIVE CAN. Lol oh ya I met my ct mr ngan at the lan area there hoho I have a feeling he wanted to lan but fled after seeing me yay. Took a pic with him to show the rest of the class even tho he forced me to never circulate his pic hehe. HE'S LIKE THE COOLEST CT EVER. Anyway left the place at 1045 cause I was really damn tired and was not feeling that well.

HOHO I HAD A DAMN WEIRD DREAM LAST NIGHT. SUPER DUPER WEIRD DREAM. Lol ok i dreamt that ---(gofiguresorrynonamesprovided) was pregnant and is engaged to some dude. She went to school with this pink pregnant dress. WAH I really freaked out can. DAMN DAMN STUNNED. I was like wtf is going on. Lol then my class ahma said that she cancelled the engagement liao but my mind was in a blank. Haha then george saw me stoning and was trying to get it out of me but I was sat there and stared at him. Lol so exciting can suddenly my hp alarm woke me up so anticlimax.

Hoho then I had a damn bad headache and my nose was fully blocked with my throat sore as hell. I took my temp and it was 37.8. ARGH I think i'm too heaty after eating all the chaota food at class outing. Sorry sharon couldnt leave my house. Went back to bed and woke up at 1130. Haha I felt even worse after that. I couldnt really talk cause my throat was so painful. And my nose kept running and somehow it hurt like hell. Felt like dying. Took a panadol and went downstairs to watch tv with my tissues in my hand. Haha then after lunch I couldnt take all my sneezing and I went tanning to heat myself up since the sun was good. OH MAN and my sneezing stopped after a while. DAMN GOOD DISCOVERY CAN EVERYONE. Bah haha I'm better now but my throat really cmi. Cannot talk can. Sian I better get well soon. Going to play tennis with ben eunice they all tml but I think i'm just gonna play for a while only. Hoho and ya im having a headache from sleeping so much this afternoon. Sian.

ARGH WHY IS MY MOVIE DOWNLOAD STUCK AT 99.8% FOR THE PAST 2 HOURS IM REALLY PISSED OFF.

And yay thanks wayening for sending me the whole of yangchunling album aimei is bloody nice.

HAIII I dunno what's going to happen between g2. I hope things will will only turn for the better from nowonwards. Haha yeah I'm sure we both felt the feeling again yesterday(the exact same one back in march05). But there's still things to get settled if we are going to go back to what we were. Haha he still treats me like a small boy la damnit when he pulled my arm on the crowded bus back to marina mrtstation. But yeah I'm really glad tt all the awkwardness and weirdness were things of the past. Its time to move on yeah. THANK YOU LORD FOR HELPING ME.

OH MAN ON BAK IS ON CHANNEL U NOW ITS A DAMN NICE SHOW. Haha our school showed it to us last year after o level bio prac cause there was nothing to do in the lt. okie gtg now bye.

WAHHH I WANNA PUKE MAN. SHIIIIT! OH MAN I JUST WATCHED THE MOST DISGUSTING MOVIE EVER IN MY LIFE AND I REALLY WANNA DIE!! ok this afternoon I was searching for a new lost episode to download but I realised that its not going to be shown in the US until the following week so I was looking through the torrents and found this japanese movie called audition. Hmm so familiar so I downloaded it to watch SHIT IT WAS A BIG MISTAKE. Its about this 40+ year old man who has a teenage son auditioning for women to be his wife. Ok sounds damn retarded. Then he meets this girl who's like super conservative and tame and shy and housewife material and he falls in love with her. After sleeping with her, she suddenly disappears and damn weird things start to happen. Ok the first 1 hr is really boring but the 2nd hour is SO BLOODY SICK. First, they showed a guy without 3 fingers, his tongue and his left ear then slowly that woman is revealed to be this CRAZY BITCH WHO IS SHITTILY GROSS. Wah when they showed the scene where she pokes like 20 metal wires through the man's stomach and eyes, she was still smiling and giggling "deeper..deeper"!! Haha i took off my earphones and covered my eyes man damn sicckkkk. Hoho thats not the worse part. She also used this long wire thingy to cut through both his foot and she was bloody sadistic. OH MAN I was really cringing in disgust for the first time I could really feel my dinner( or whats left of it) coming out of my stomach and almost pee-ed in my pants!!! Haha shit I love gore and horror movies but this movie is really too much for me to take. Even saw is not as bad as this cause saw is a damn intelligent film. I CANT SLEEP LIAO EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I PICTURE THE WOMAN EEEEEE!!!! THIS MOVIE IS REALLY PURE TORTURE. HOHO ANYONE WANNA WATCH IT JUST TELL ME I HAVE IT BURNT TO A CD LIAO!



Haha not going for band tml. Not sure whether george still wants to cut hair in the morning. But there's 4D gathering at marina though at 5 woot cant wait!

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HAHA oh man I cant believe I just did that. This is supposed to be my secret blog but I'm resorting to erasing my entry. Its sad hoho. Maybe locking up my blog will be a better way.

Bah there were lectures from 8 to 10am this morning super duper boring. Haha the chem lecturer keeps telling us to shutup but HELLO U SHUTUP FIRST UR VOICE IS BLOODY ANNOYING! Hoho math was draggy n shitty it was plain boring. Yeap after that met up with jared ben adriel jermyn n some of jared's classmates and we decided to go kboxing yay.

Erm we reached cine at around 1115 and got 2 seperate rooms. One for ben's classmates and another for the rest of us, with ben running back and forth singing songs with both groups. Haha woah at first it was really boring cause only adriel and I were singing our hearts out as Jermyn is a chinese illiterate and hasnt heard of all the chinese songs and jared was just shy. Then we started chosing songs like barbie girl and cartoon heros from aqua and I REALLY SANG UNTIL DAMN BLOODY HIGH. Haha everyone started joining in and it was really damn fun. WAH I ALSO SANG UNTIL DAMN GROSS AT SOME PARTS I WAS JUST PLAIN SHOUTING LOUDLY. Lol then jared was a freak and chose songs like CHARLIE BROWN and the song started with phee phi pho or what shit. IT WAS DAMN DISGUSTING CAN. Then we sang Au Leng Sai(haha sp?) and the mtv was just fan wei kou haha. Oh ya how come kbox now has commercials liao IM GONNA SUE THEM FOR WASTING 30s EVERYTIME!

Lol we were singing damn a lot of english songs but it got boring so I went over to the other room to sing chinese songs. HAHA BEN'S CLASSMATES ARE REALLY FUNNY. Esp youmin wah she really sang until damn ru shen can. Haha but her voice is really good.. sounded exactly like zhang shao han not bad sia. Lol then ben kept taking ugly shots of her in his digicam and she was desperately trying to hide from the cam. Wah poor thing la she keep getting teased by ben n jared. Her new nickname is called fatty min LOL.

After that jermyn jared and adriel came to my house to play ps. Haha damn fun la I always love to play ddr not only can I excercise but its damn shiok game as well. Then we played marvel vs capcom, winning eleven, crashteamracing. Haha crashteamracing was awesome it was fun setting bombs or causing the opponent to get hit by my weapon, allowing me to race ahead of them yay. Played bridge following that which was nice considering how long since I last played it.

Oh ya my freaking tracker is sooo cocked up I dunno whats wrong with it. Is it cause I didnt know how to install properly? Gah so tired of trying to fix it I dun really give a shit liao.

Bah damn tired and theres school tml AHHHHHHHHH

Woke up this morning contemplating pretty hard if I should go school or not. Lol but I was damn tired so I didnt go anyway. Ya then mk smsed me using gareth's hp at 7.20 and at 7.38 and called me at 7.48 to come to school. HELLO IM SLEEPING LA. I rejected the call hehe. Whoa then woke up just in time to catch the live telecast of the amazing race. Damn exciting sia quite happy the gaghans family got in 2nd to last phew~. Yeap then I realised that 8 people didnt attend class today-me kenny ching chin sy yogi gil and joel. DAMN SHIOK MAN FIRST TIME RECORD.

Yeap then at 1 I met mk and wn and lh at our busstop to take bus all the way down to ECP. I was chasing mk like crazy cause we were going to be late but tmd how come we were the first to reach there. And we waited 30 mins for dear queen ching to appear THANKS HOR. Yeap so me kenny ching mk wn yogi n lhwent to ECP for some adventure. Haha we we tracked 10 miles from the busstop to the roller blades shop near macs and wasted no time in getting ourselves into the blades. Oh damn it haha but we were screaming and shrieking our heads off when we stood up cause the blades were really slippery and we all couldnt stand up. Hoho oh ya none of us knew how to blade properly so we were making a fool out of ourselves. Lol and tmd the blading training area was like a 100m away from the shop so HOW THE HELL ARE WE SUPPOSED TO MAKE UP DAMN WAY THERE. Hoho so we started walking on the mud and grass cause it was easier. There were also humps on the road so some of the more noob ppl like ching couldn't blade over it and kept rolling backwards when attempting to cross the hump. IT WAS DAMN LOSER. Lol anyway we took like 15 mins to blade 100m hoho to the training area. Haha since i learnt how to blade on sun liao so I got back my blading skills pretty quicky and managed to move around with ease. But poor everyone was struggling like shit hanging on to the bars for their poor lives cause they simply couldnt move forward. Haha but I encouraged them to let go of the bars la if not THEY CAN BE STUCK TO THE BLOODY BARS FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES LA. Haha then yogi was like praying that we wont be seen by ppl we know cause it was really bloody loser EVEN THE 9 YEAR OLD BOY CAN BLADE CAN. Haha just when she said that we spotted a group of rj kids from 1S03S(jw's class) including tina and melvin walking past us. Oh man it was so funny cause we were scrambling and literally crawling(cannot blade la) to the end of the training area and covering our faces with our shirts haha we were laughing until we wanna die can. But anyway they saw us and tina and melvin said hi to me. HOHO IT WAS BLOODY EMBARASSING. Ya after that everyone fell and fell and fell haha it was really amusing seeing them scream when they fall on their butts. But everyone was doing pretty well and could blade for distances without much problems

Then the most unfortunate happened. Kenny fell and hurt his wrist and was in damn a lot of pain. Wah we panicked sia cause he couldnt move his wrist at all. Haha then I was damn nice can I took his blades and his guards off for him. Dunno why I felt like I was the oldest brother there and needed to protect my younger brother. Haha maybe cause our clique has grown closer recently. WAH IM DAMN NICE LA. Yeap then we all helped him up and I carried his blades for him back to the shop to return everything. Haha it was quite nice la cause we paid 7 bucks for renting the blades for 2 hours but we only bladed for 1 hr before the accident happened. No one complained at all and we all decided to bring kenny to see a tui-na doctor at upper paya labar. Haha yeap so we left the place and took a cab down to upper paya labar with kenny.. all 7 of us even though yogi stayed quite near ECP. Haha ya at the clinic we were all nervous for him cause the girl in the room was shouting and screaming in pain haha I could really imagine how scared kenny was. Yeah then he went in and he was laughing all the way cause he said that it was really painful when the doctor worked on his wrist. Yay not bad he's quite brave. He came out with his right wrist bandaged and it was really smelly cause of the medicine and we kept teasing him. Lol yeap after that it was dinner time and we were all hungry so we went to the nasi lemak stall from the show holland v to have our dinner. LOL it was not in holland v la it was in kovan which was near the clinic.

Haha after that everyone left cause they were really tired and ching kenny and me walked 10 miles to heartland mall at kovan there to walk walk. Haha during the walk it was really funny cause we were being bloody lame and we started waving to passengers in the cars to see if they will wave back. HELLO WHY ARE SINGAPOREANS SO BORING NONE WAVED BACK CAN. Haha yeah we walked around for half and hour at heartland mall before sitting down on the benches in front of this shoe shop. Lol quite nice la we were really talking a lot of shit from how fat liching's thighs were to how deformed her toes were to whether kenny and I have abs to the Bs Ds and Vs(haha too explicit u go figure out yourself quite sick hint hint). Lol it was really really very funny talking to them yay I felt so happy after that. Then we did stupid stuff while talking like pointing middle fingers and sticking out our tongues to little kids walking past. HAHA IT WAS SO FUNNY. Yeap after that we got bored and went to cold storage to guangguang lol and we spent 1 1/2 hrs there can. Haha we spent 20 mins deciding what ice cream to buy and spent 20 mins what sweets to buy for ching since she hasnt eaten anything today and spent the remaining time doing crazy stuff like dancing around as if we were in a club. WE BOUGHT NOTHING IN THE END LA SO WE WASTED ALL OUR TIME. HOHO as it was quite cold there liching decided to jump into the freezer so that her body will burn her fats to keep her warm yay.

Lol left heartland mall at 945 whoa Im really tired now. Today has been interesting la. Not so much bout blading(although everyone agreed that it was really fun) but I finally saw how close our clique was through the kenny incident. Everyone really looked out for each other. Nice feeling la yay I like all of them. Haha yeap n I must pray for kenny's wrist also hope it gets well soon.

BLOODY BORING. Had pw dry run this morning. Nothing much to say la except I really speak damn soft meh. And mr ngan commented that I shake my head a lot like I'm holding a rock concert when I present. GOT MEH. Then ching told me that I didnt get ogl. Kinda disappointed at first but yeah I could see that coming la. Went to the board to check out who got in. Really shocked to not see george's name there. He told me that he got in last wed and that he was pretty happy with his interview. What the hell happened. Dunno. I'm sure that he's superly disappointed but yeah they only chose 16 out of 100 plus guys. What are the chances man. Hope he's alright. His msn nick already tells me that he's not though.

Bah super sian after that went to mos to eat with my classmates. Haha quite cool then we were like heck la tml lets not go school. We shall go ECP instead to rollerblade and cycle! woot! Sounds exciting. School has been like how fei recently I dun wanna waste my youth rotting in class. Must well do something fun and productive.

Haha oh ya I dreamt about a lot of things when I took my afternoon nap haha but I could only remember the last thing that occurred before eric's sms woke me up. HAHA i dreamt that i saw yiheng(my clar junior)'s album commercial on tv. And woot its no ordinary album. Its an album for babies and haha i saw a clip of his MTV before I woke up. Yeah it was in a forest with rabbits and dogs running around and he was sitting in a baby cradle singing three blind mice. HAHA i was laughing my head off it was really so funny at that moment. Lol then he gave a forced smile to the camera and was trying to pluck an apple off a tree. WAH MY DREAM IS REALLY RETARDED CAN.

Watched extreme japan just now oh man its quite nice le. Cause they went to tokyo and visited some of the places which I went during my band trip in june. Brought back nice memories hehe doing a lot of shit stuff with my juniors and some of my batchmates. Haha then jermyn and I would just keep having pillow fights(whoa damn childish) and we went to nic and brian's room to strip them but in the end I was the one who got stripped la HELLO WHAT THE HELL. Haha nice nice memories of disneyland as well.. My juniors and I were running around to try all the best rides and shuang would not stop screaming into my ear during the rollercoaster rides. HAHA so bloody funny also when we queued up for one hour to row this canoe but were so tired halfway and made the poor worker row us (8 person) all the way back to the island hehe.

Haha as u can see I'm trying to keep my entry as positive as possible. That's my current mindset now which is to look at the bright side of life. But yeah life is not so smooth sailing recently.. having some problems but I'll leave everything to God la.

Coolness. I just finished my pw script. WAH so frustrating cause i needed to edit a whole load of shit taken from the the internet. But yeah i cant complain much cause I think yanshuo did a hell lot more than me. He's like damn bloody awesome lor. He was sick today probably from doing our powerpoint slides on sunday and he still helped me with my script sia. SHIT i feel damn bad for letting him do so much things. I think i need to treat him to coffee, lunch, dinner, breakfast and more dinners after that. Yeap.

DAMN sian la today school. Its one of those why-the-hell-did-i-even-step-into-the-bloody-school-gates days. Total waste of time can. Haha but my conversations with shuyi was extremely funny sia. Was talking to her throughout the lectures and laughing my ass off. Haha she told me that she always wanted to become a xian nu or fairy cause fairies are all pretty and nice. Haha she even imagined how she will be like if she were one-long hair with gowns that are made of a billion metres of cloth, haha floating on clouds with a flower in her hand. Yeah she wants to zhao fu ren lei with all her blessings and shit. She promised to make all fat people thin and all thin people fat, get rid of all the hurricanes and floods, and bring couples together. Lol she is really full of shit u know but its the funny kind of shit haha. Then everytime she starts bitching bout someone i'll tell her that she'll go to hell and she'll start hitting her own mouth and pray to Buddha that she's sorry HAHA. She is planning to cultivate herself to be as pure and innocent as possible so that she'll float up into the sky as a fairy. GO HOME AND SLEEP FIRST LA!

Tml is oral presentation dry-run. Hoho i know im gonna screw up my part. Didnt even prepare much. Mr Ngan said that he'll bring in a cup of coke and start shaking his head when we present, telling us that we are all full of trash tomorrow(rjc-fied version of the american idol). Haha he's one funny dude man.

How can I sleep immediaately after jumping on the bed arhz? Yesterday i was rolling on my bed for more than one hour thinking bout weird things. Not good sia.

Yawn a little tired liao. Tmr still must be in school at 8 cause our group has not had a single rehearsal whee we rock. BYE!

yAy! haha today is a not-too-bad day! kinda refreshing to have a good day after a string of shitty days! well today has been good cause i finally had time off to do things that i've wanted to do for some time already woohoo..

Haha i've been pretty much influenced by the jap/korean craze thats surrounding me now and today by chance, i stumbled upon this vcd set which i had caught in sec2 called friends. Erm its not the US series staring jennifer anniston thank u. I'm rarely into love stories so finding myself liking this 4 episode mini series is pretty cool for me. Yeap its basically about this japanese girl meeting this korean dude by chance in Hongkong and became good friends. Slowly, they fell in love after frequent exchanges of emails. What's really cool about this show is how they featured both japanese and korean cultures and touches issues like conservative korean families. The couple had to go through many obstacles to be with each other and our hearts melt to see the happy ending at the end of the 4 hours. Haha not only that, the female characters in the show are like how freakin cute and the male star, won bin, is also pretty good looking. AIYAH EVERYONE IN THE SHOW IS DAMN BLOODY PRETTY DAMN SHUAI LA! Haha dunno why I could relate to certain parts of the show like when the couple broke up because they were quite different(duh hello one is korean one is japanese), made me remember about that thing. Sigh it definitely brough back memories. But as Tomoko put it herself, "the sweet memories are enough, I should not be too greedy."

Haha after that I decided to stop being a couch potato and went off to do something that i promised Eric that i will do by the end of this week(today is sunday already la damit)- learning how to rollerblade. Yeah i've always been wanting to learn for a billion years liao but I simply did not have the time. Well yeah today was one of my rare free days so I didnt wanna waste my opportunity. Haha yeap so after watching friends, I rushed downstairs to put on all my guards and stuff and slid into my sister's rollerblades. Its such a joke that i have 3 pairs of rollerblades at home but I still do not know how to use them. Hoho so yay I went to the road outside of my house to practise. Haha oh man i think i rock at rollerblading la. Its my first time blading but i got the hang of it in 2 minutes la. How pro is that. Oh ya its really damn fun as well haha but i still cannot do a turn properly. Well practise makes perfect la. Yeap then later my brother my brother's girlfriend my sister and my dad all came out to watch my blade. HELLO DO I LOOK LIKE A FREAKING CLOWN TO U GUYS? Haha yeah just when that thought came to my mind i fell on my butt and bounced on the ground. Oh man it was really painful. And embarrassing. Shit. Haha ya then i fell again after 10 minutes but this one made me fall flat with my chest on the ground. Luckily i was wearing all the guards i so i was not scratched. HOHO WAH BLADING IS SO PAINFUL ONE.

Dinner was ma la steamboat which was super yummy! Haha it was the first time our family had ma la steamboat cause normally my mum would just use chicken soup and it got really boring after a while. Its nice to have a change. Ahhhh everything was damn shiok it makes my mouth water just thinking bout it again.

WooT! There's school tml! Cant wait. Hoho its the first time that i'm looking forward to school. Haha maybe is cause the exams are over and school has been super fun ever since doing shit stuff with my classmates like ponning lectures to watch vcds in the library. Man i really like my clique in class. They're all like super fun and nice, and they cheer me up whenever I was down. Theyre really awesome people cant imagine one year down the road and we have to go separate ways. DAMN SIAN.

Hoho my pw group really rocks. I have no idea whats going on man. No one is doing anything i think. Hehe but at the end of the day we always manage to squeeze out something that its quite good. Aiyah we're supposed to do pw now but hmmm where's everyone?

Haha my entries are getting damn boring i better shutup now.

HAHA today is weird. Real weird. I have weird days so often it just sucks.

Man. Was contemplating damn hard after I woke up whether or not to go band. Band has been such a dread for me for the past few months. Its no longer what it used to be. Dunno why. Prob cause i miss my section seniors damn damn damn much, especially Novella and Tze Hui. Haha i still remember those days where me ben tze and nov would just spend our concert time laughing our asses off with all those crazy things we used to do and not giving a shit bout everything else. Yeah there's this time when we suddenly picked up a stench and we were finding the source of the stench desperately cause it was so bad. Haha we were checking each other's socks and other people's socks and came to a conclusion that it was from Chrissie cause we were so used to bullying her. Haha then suddenly tze turned around and found out that Mr Oura's shoe was just beside her HAHA WE REALLY LAUGH UNTIL WE CAN DIE CAN. NON STOP LAUGHTER FOR 5 MINS WE REALLY DIDNT CARE BOUT PLAYING THE SONG AT THAT TIME. sigh i really miss those days. I really looked forward to band every single time. Now, everything seems so different. The atmosphere in band is different and everyone's attitude has changed. The pieces we are playing are so crappy that i constantly find entertainment in stupid things like playing zi-ko-pa with yuhning or calling leehui only to tell her nothing or telling chrissie to shutup even though she didnt say anything haha. MY LIFE IN BAND IS SO SAD.

Haha after band went out with adriel and lingzi to have lunch. HAHA oh man lingzi is really funny cause she was reading 8days while walking out of school and she fell off a curb at the side of the road and injured her ankle. haha ok im evil for laughing at her but the way she fell was so unglam and it was so coincidental that there were so many rj peeps around us when she fell. HAHA adriel and i were laughing damn loudly man it was so funny. Then after limping for a while she started complaining that her other leg was cramping lol so typical lingzi. Yeah then we ate at s11 and she kept making silly comments that were so laughable. LOL SHE IS REALLY FUNNY. After eating we chatted there for 2 hours talking bout stupid stuff and gossipping. Quite nice la talking to both of them really made me feel better after the horrendous band prac. We walked around j8 after that for about 1 1/2 hrs doing stupid things like playing with all the toys in action city. Yay then i went home to sleep at around 530 cause so tired.

I just read Denise's blog. She seems to be having so many problems. Poor girl. I hope she gets all her stuff sorted out. It just sucks that everyone's having a tough time. Adriel rated his life 4/10 ytd. I'd give myself the same rating. Dunno but i just feel so empty. I'm like a little bird looking out for love from others. From God. From family. From friends. SUCKS MAN. Dunno what's wrong with me.

SIANESS i just remembered i missed the odac ubin thing today. I'd figured that it'll be quite fun but no team la. George didnt go today for the thing as well. I think he missed it for the same reason as me.

WHY ARE MY ENTRIES SO FREAKING LONG. IM LIKE WRITING NOVEL LA DAMNIT. GLEN HAS SO MUCH SHIT TO SAY EVERTIME! k i need to stop.



taken before ATEMPO! haha i wish tze and nov all the best in their As! Tze promised to treat us raffles hotel buffet if she gets 3As! WOOT!

WOot! haha yay first official post on my blog. i hope i dun need to lock this soon tho.

Lol. u must be thinking wad kind of shit web domain is this. haha adriel thought of it for me. quite cool la i think. Life is really like a putu mayam, long n dreadful, chrunched up into a mess, but tastes sweet n delicious at the end of the day. HAHA WAD KIND OF SHIT ANALOGY IS THIS? I JUST THOUGHT OF IT LA!

Damn sian. Today's really sian. Basically rjc open house which was dead boring so im not gonna talk bout it here. Dun wanna spoil my first entry with such a crappy day. HAHA. ok i'm gonna talk bout ytd's mahjong session at ben's house.

Yeap me joy eunice n jared went to ben's house after open house preparation to play mahjong. haha it was quite funny cause we were sneaking out, not wanting to get found out by her. We took 156 there which was so freakin long that i fell asleep on the bus. Joy said i slept peacefully unlike jared who almost fell off his seat. Lol. When we reached his house, we wasted no time in playing and ben was the overall helper since he was like how freaking zai n we had 1 extra player. Haha eunice won the first round, followed by jared who went on a winning streak. Haha halfway through i was so damn freaking lucky n zi mo-ed a 5 tai set! woot damn funny looking at all their reluctant faces when they gave 2 bucks to me each, esp eunice who was not won a single round since her first win hours ago. HAHA then ben suddenly told everyone tt the person who wins the first game will be cursed and will lose the rest of the games. LOL we were really laughing like siao as eunice almost fainted. True enough, she did not win a single round at all throughout the whole match. Yeah then after we completed north south east west, we played a new match and haha guess who won the first game. No points for guessing eunice. HEHE it was really damn funny. BAh then later shuyi msged me must do pw at 9 so we cut our game short cause i had to go home to discuss freaking pw. SIAN.

Lol not bad la i won 4.40. Quite a lot liao considering normally only win or lose 1 plus bucks. That means that eunice lost quite a bit.

SIGH. Met him damn a lot of times today during open house. Not surprising since our booths were like so super close. Dunno what to say la i really dunno wad he is thinking. After the whole mayhem i can definitely say that i've matured as a person by quite a bit. Haha i used to be a person who's afraid of loneliness n will never do anything alone. But i still rmbed the day before math paper i was in the lib alone doing my stuff. It was the first time that i didnt give a shit tt i was mugging alone. Its like all the self-consciousness and my fear of being alone just dissipated into thin air. Nice feeling. I could finally concentrate fully on math and everything that happened around me doesnt catch my attention at all. I became independent overnight.

Haha one thing that really surprised me was that i have not once blamed him for everything that has hapened considering how asshole i am. Prob due to the fact that i've figured out why it was so easy for him to let go but a billion times more difficult for me. Its cause he has brought so many things into my life this entire year n taught me things that can never be found in textbooks or internet. He showed me wad true friendship and love is, treated me like a younger brother and showed singapore to me every friday evening(going places like chinatown, newton food centre, airport blahblah). His epathy skills do work n he can find out what exactly is going on in my mind, never failing to cheer me up whenever i was down with his lameness and stupid jokes(that i really miss). haha but what have i brought into his life? Absolutely nothing. BEST FRIENDS MY ASS! I was a really lousy friend actually. I was annoying, whiny, plagued with shit problems and worst of all, I took him for granted. I left with him with nothing to hold on to at the end of the day. No wonder he could let go so easily. Sadly, I only realise this truth when it was too late. Yeap i have to take full responsibility of what has happened. He is really an awesome person. I don't think i deserve such a cool friend. I'm quite glad that he has found great friends like ZK and KM. Yeah I'm sure that they'll walk with him through thick and thin and he can find true friendship in them yay.

But yeah I'm pretty glad that I've changed now. I'm back to my crazy but matured self. I'm also happy to see that I've grown closer to some of my friends now that I think i have neglected throughout this year. This whole thing really made me realise that having a best friend is perfectly fine, but having to rely emotionally entirely on this person is really a stupid thing. Damn was i a retarded asshole who deserves to be shot. Haha ok i just thought bout that very night when i confronted him. I finally understood how people with insommia suffered. I was lost and desperate. Man that was a shit feeling. Haha sheesh I really couldnt believe that i msged him things that were so disgusting. Gah im so weird.

This entry is getting random. Just finished watching survivor. Quite cool I'm rooting for stephanie and cindy. Bummer that Brian got booted he was really funny last week man.

Haha ok gtg. THERES FREAKING BAND TML I HATE BAND I DREAD BAND IT JUST SUCKS THE PIECES WE PLAY ARE PURE SHIT EVERYTHING BOUT BAND IS SHIT! haha ok i need to stop.




taken 19-4-05.. man do i miss those days.. there's still some of me which cant let go, hoping that we can become awesome friends like we used to.. but it just seems so far far away bah.. and i look like SHIT n that picture coolness

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