Haha wow.

First time coming online since like thurs.

Not bad sia.

Anyway life's quite steady now.

Into the mugging mode liao which is woots.

Lol 4 more weeks only omg to prelims ahh oh my tian.

Haaaa.

Hmmm.

Service ytd was vvvv good.

Ok the ministry after service was fantastic.

There was a mass deliverance thing for inner healing.

And I was one of the hundreds and hundreds who responded to the altar call.

The holy spirit really hit me hard somehow hoho but nvm shall not elaborate more.

Quite amazing la how God heals all of us from our pain and sorrows.

Really came out of the service 10 times lighter than usual.

Threw many many things on my mind to Him cause I know that He is faithful and magnificent.

Really glad that my faith has increased much this past few weeks.

I really need the assurance as I start the war against time for the preparation of the As.

Woooohooo.

Anyway today was mugging in school again.

With george, then joined by zk and colin after dinner.

Lol dinners are always damn fun and fos la really laugh damn hard.

Oh oh and today was mrs kwan's last day in school sobsobsob.

Haha but our class had this farewell thing and gave her presents like a basketball with our signatures(since she was bball captain in secsch), a photoframe plus album with my photos and this card.

So sweet rite even had swensons ice cream cake WAHHH.

So sad that she's leaving she's really an awesomely damn good teacher.

Will miss her much lei.

Wah but our new math teacher really -.-

And tangmuikee u are officially 18 liao congratz.

Wah I'm talking shit lei quite sleepy now.

Oh crap still must print xing r ong photo for mk tml now sianzzzz.

Aiyahhh ok shall go do stuff liao byebye.

Aiyaa.

Sometimes I really wish that u wont get upset at me for every single detail.

Even at times when I have no ill intentions or when I dont mean it.

Cause its only going to strain our friendship.

And I dont think its worth it.

Most of the time when I do certain things I have my own reasons for doing them.

And u just twist and turn my actions as if I did sth damn bad when it was not my intentions at all.

This is quite sad la.

Argh.

Talked to ryan this afternoon after school for a while.

And his words kinda woke me up finally.

Not even mr hodge did that in his assembly.

Wow the coming 3 months are really going to affect the rest of your life in a large way.

And I really do not wish to screw up my future cause of my laziness.

He even had the drive and motivation to do work until 4 plus in the morning which I havent done so in a billion gazillion trillion years.

Ok somehow he became my role model lol.

But sigh is studies really everything on my mind?

Haha doesnt seem like it.

I keep having these bits and pieces of other stuff going on somewhere at the back of my head.

Haa ryan's right u really need to focus and get all the shit out of my mind.

Sian.

My dad is quitting his job.

I think he's getting sick of it.

Which is quite worrying cause he is starting his own business.

Oh my tian quite risky la but dunno must support him right.

I dun think I'll go online as often as I currently am liao cause my dad needs this notebook for his own stuff.

And I'm too lazy to go downstairs to use the common computer.

So yeah updates will get less frequent la definitely.

Ahhhh thank goodness its friday tml woot 12pm day!

But its quite alarming to see how fast one week has past by us.

In a few more of these its going to be the commence of our prelims which is damn scary.

Haha I keep rmbing how my studies were how fucked^9999 up last promos yet I manage to squeeze out acceptable grades.

Lol so if I work 10 times harder than I did last promos I shld be able to do well right?

WAH IM REALLY SELF DELUSIONAL.

Haha considering how I fared for both cts omg.

Haiya.

Sometimes I just wish that things wouldnt need to be so..

So #$%^&

Haha I'm referring to a few things here.

Lol.

Go die la glen.

Go die la.

You're something beautiful
A contradiction

I am in the library.

And I just wanna collapse into a coma for 2 days.

Cause I am so tmd sleepy even tho I fell alseep at 1045 ytd.

Is there sth wrong with me haha?

Im tired.

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Joce sent me the song hero by mariah during lec today.

Had this song on loop for the whole afternoon.

The lyrics might be a bit cliche.

But isnt it true that everyone has a hero in himself to seek out the emptiness.

And if we do get lucky, we might meet someone other than your parents who can do that for you as well.

One whom we can look up to and find comfort in.

Lol everyone has a hero la I guess whether its in God, parents, friends or even one's self.

Its just whether we are willing make an effort to find that person.

Fate plays a bit part as well.

Hoho I am tmd sleepy now and there goes all my big plans to finish work.

Howhowhow.

Hmmm tml is a pretty short and fei day cause alfie's not coming in for 2 hrs of chem.

So I guess its a slack day woot.

Cant wait.

Oh my tian I just uploaded 2 songs to my hp and neither of them could be played cause they are wma files sian.

I am going to fall alseep any moment omg.

And I worship You Lord
My life in You restored
Here is my heart
Make it your sanctuary
Cause nobody else
But Jesus only You

Cried during this song in worship today.

Havent done tt for quite a while liao.

Dunno just feel quite overwhelmed by some stuff.

But God really touched me and He told me everything's gonna be ok.

It IS going to be ok.

I just know it.

Faith.

Another school week's gonna commence in a few hours time.

I'm gonna have to pull through it man.

Yawwnn.

Tired.

Everyone pls sleep early.

Goodnight.

For He is faithful.

Lol I just sat on my bed and thought of a few people whom I miss so fucking much.

Nth beats that feeling.

Nothing.

Ooops I havent cursed on this blog for quite a while liao.

Forgive me haha.

And I just found out sth which is very interesting lol.

Ok I wanna sleep liao must wake up early tml gdnight.

Oh ya pls youtube miss swan its really the best haha.

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm

-

On a side note.

yx says: SPREAD THE PI JOY. HAPPY PI DAY 3.14159

LOL WTH.

Oh wth to sth else also haha.

Hmmm.

Have quite a bit to say haha.

But I have no idea where to start.

So I shall just keep them to myself.

Gahhh I'm in a midst of packing all my notes.

So my room really looks like a tmd messy pigsty cum shit hole.



Haha found george's integration2 tut and lz's food biotech notes within the pile of neverending pieces of paper.

LAWL.

Ok I will return asap paiseh paiseh.

Mugged in sch today with george lol.

But spent most of the time sleeping playing ball and singing haha.

Oh madtv is vv funny plus retarded go youtube the videos ba.

Hmmm.

Well.

For some time now I've sorta adopted a new mindset to many things in my life.

And I realised how different my way of thought and action is from the past.

I wont call it a change.

Evolution maybe?

Dunno it just seems difficult to do somethings I could in the past.

Which is quite sian.

Lol even my blog has ended up to just one two liners per entry but somehow my thoughts can just be fully elaborated by them theres really no need to talk bout sth else.

Haha sadly I know many ppl around me who adopt this thinking.

And currently I know of a relationship which is falling apart cause of this and I'm quite saddened by it.

Perhaps its the looming As ahead.

Perhaps its just a phase.

Perhaps its just me?

Lol if u have no friggin clue what I'm talking about its ok cause Im not really going into my point as u can see this blog is no longer private and somewhat safe.

Baring my soul to ppl is sometimes quite a challenging task.

Ahhh there u go.

Lol sometimes it really gets damn tiring.

And mk rmb that sms I sent u sometime ago.

I really meant it lol its not a joke.

Haha all I want is to draw inspiration and hope from the dude up there for now.

Trying.

My hardest to accomplish stuff that I've always wanted to reach.

And my studies really need a heck load of hardwork to make up for my whole year.

Lol trying.

Still.

Sorry for the incoherence of my thoughts I'm quite sleepy tts why.

Yeap tts all for now la.

Buaibuai.

翻阅成长的足迹 回朔了记忆
原来懂珍惜 才看得见美丽

Omg spent the whole physics lecture today laughing my ass off.

Bryant was such a joker and started playing tricks with joel.

Damn funny la joel still stood up to walk around halfway thru the lecture with the note pasted on his back.

Wahhhhh quite childish but damn damn funny.

Alfie talked about how he used to sleep at 4 every night to mug when he was still a student during chem remedial.

Lol and how he dropped both his s papers for his special one back in hc.

I think he is sjb lei.

Haha he started coming up with a word list including words like kiam pa which he would use during lesson on kenny to emphasise the value addedness of his lessons.

Omg really fos haha but I'm realy blessed to have such a cool and funny chem tutor really.

Oh my heck but I'm quite stressed now.

Ouch my throat hurts like hell from screaming and shouting excessively everytime zk won the uno games last night lol so loser -.-

Hah ok I think better zhao liao got stuff to do.

Night.

闭上眼睛忍住泪别哭泣

我只想牵你的指尖绕地球最后一圈

HELLO go die la we sounded quite nice on the recording can.

How come still lost to tj?!?!

Urghh.

I am very very very very sleepy now.

And just now playing uno with colin zk and hb was absolutely hilarious.

Zk owned all of us every single round using who knows what kind of luck.

Damn funny la every round we will just feed him cards to win.

Laughed until peng.

Oh ya I really lost until my pi gu kai hua.

Lol die liao I still have so much work to complete but I cant take it anymore.

I think I'm going to wake up early tml to do chemmmm.





Haha I only took 2 pics the whole night cause I was too damn lazy.

Lol anyway I really wanna die now.

Sayonara goodnight.

但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

我们勾勾手 不准不快乐

有些话　很可笑　给承诺　又办不到
有些梦　很微妙　醒来後　却被洗掉
有些爱　常迟到　来不及　给拥抱
总来不及　让你知道
　　
有些事　很荒谬　爱恨总在　原地绕
有些人　很无聊　明明寂寞　装骄傲
有些爱　在寻找　分不清　谁重要
总分不清楚　谁先为谁心跳”

...

Haha today I attended like 5 mins of math lesson.

And that was the end of my school day woot.

Lol went to support yo gi and li h at the canoe finals, tgt with around half the class.

Damn loser la we were such in a rush tt we forgot to leave our bags in the lockers.

And just when we reached there it started to downpour real bad.

Lol super funny we all were squashed up in this small tent.

As in literally squashed with canoeists from pj i think.

Everyone was drenched and damn wet somemore must hold on to their bags haha.

It was a pathetic state lol.

Watched the races in the rain after tt.

Good job li h and yogi eh u guys did awesome.

And li h dun get too upset eh it was an accident.

Halfway thru it started to rain one more time and it was tmd loser.

Getting soaked to the skin for a second time in the morning.

Haha but quite funny la.

We wanted to use the hc flag to shelter ourselves.

Then kenny and joel used the buckets from the councillors.

And samuel plucked leaves from the tree.

HAHA wah really laugh until.

After the whole thing ended everyone was damn tired.

Plus soaking wet and cold we just wanted to head home instead of school for lesson.

Wah damn good students.

Lol I also went home to sleep after lunch cause I was super exhausted after one whole week.

Dunno.

I hope I wont burn out too early =/

Anyway.

Haha there is always time to take a few pics whether we are dry or wet lol.







Lol plus somemore on joel's hp.

Gahh.

Sometimes.

I really wish tt I am not doing the wrong thing.

But life is full of decision and choices.

You either go here or u go there.

And theres not much time to ponder which path u want to take.

Hope I made the right one.

Hmmm.

I realised I spent ytd and today talking to ppl bout stuff.

Talked to mk gil gillian and waye after sch ytd.

Then to mk.

Ryan this morning during break.

Perry after school for a few hours.

And with zi kai and colin from dinner to 10.

Lol wah really got a lot of things to discuss.

But it feels nice to have heart to heart chats la really.

Gets loads off my mind and chest.

Thanks guys.

I miss my brother so damn much.

And he's like only gone for a few hours.

He sent me this sms this afternoon which nearly made me tear.

Really regretted joining ncb and not sending him off.

Wad an asshole seriously.

But the last moments before he boarded the plane I was on the phone with him.

And I nearly broke down cause I realised tt I wont be seeing him for the next year.

U wont know how much a person means to u until he/she leaves ur life.

So true so true.

I know tt feeling.

Its so familiar lol.

Gahhh.

Anyway take care bro.

See ya online soon.

Haha.

I just read something which knifed me real hard.

Second blow of the day.

Everything's fucked up.

Plus my bro is leaving for australia tml for a long long time.

And I might not even have the chance to send him off cause of nbc.

...

I'm feeling horrible.

I want out.

消失
南拳妈妈

那夜在熟悉的地点我渐渐看着你走远
说好不会再掉眼泪
晚风轻拂我的侧脸视线在后退
想念从此淹没了路面

被尘封太久的画面 我努力找了一整夜
只剩零散的记忆在更迭
能否让我再次翻阅你给的温柔
直到你要我离开的时候

你离去的那条路线消失地平线
时间背着我悄悄捏碎从前
你离去的那条路线伤痕在蔓延
落月照射的悲伤映入眼帘

被尘封太久的画面 我努力找了一整夜
只剩零散的记忆在更迭
能否让我再次翻阅你给的温柔
直到你要我离开的时候

你离去的那条路线消失地平线
时间背着我悄悄捏碎从前
你离去的那条路线伤痕在蔓延
落月照射的悲伤映入眼帘

凋谢的从前埋藏在深邃的地平线
怎奈昏黄路灯整夜照射沸腾的思念

你离去的那条路线消失地平线
时间背着我悄悄捏碎从前
你离去的那条路线伤痕在蔓延
落月照射的悲伤映入眼帘

Ahhhhh.

I was literally a walking zombie today.

Slept during EVERY lesson.

Only had 1 hour plus of sleep ytd night at george's house =/

But overall it was quite fun la eh.

Sian.

Dunno feeling quite fked up now.

I think I shld go sleep.

Will feel better tml.

Night.

What a weekend man!

Reached home pretty late/early on sat and slept like a log.

Only to have a shock of my life when a few of my friends came over to give me a surprise bday celeb.

Wah I was how ugly la just woke up nia.

George colin hu ib in yvonne haoyi.

Thanks guys from the bottom of my heart.

Haha they bought this nice ice cream cake from swensons which was quite funny as it wrote "This cake is expensive" on it.

Yep and they gave me cards plus a slipper for newurbanmale.

Thankyew.

Was so touched tt it nearly made me tear after they left.

Nice to have friends like these.

Really.

Went to have dinner with denise ben and adriel before the nj concert.

And the concert was rather nice.

Better than ours I must admit in many areas.

Sad sad.

Haha but just being there at esplanade brought back many memories for me.

Of the concert we had there more than a year ago.

Everything was so different back then.

Lol I seriously enjoyed my time in band during those times.

And our concert there was memorable for me because of many many reasons.

Nice thinking bout that night la haha.

Anyway reached home at around 1030 and I literally collapsed on my bed due to exhaustion.

And woke up this morning in a shock.

Still in my stinky clothes HAHA.

Spent most of my day today at church.

Which was v good.

Learnt a lot a lot bout relationships during service.

Somehow all the points tt the pastor was talking bout were directed at me.

And something dawned upon me which made me realise why it happened last year.

Haha yeah all these while I kept thinking tt I knew the answer.

Nah I was wrong.

Very glad tt I attended today's service.

Came out a different person somehow.

Ahhh.

Anyway my cell gave me a small chocolate cake and some softtoy for my bday.

Haha damn loser la I dropped the box containing the cake onto the floor while walking.

And it really looked like da bian when I opened the box.

Felt super bad BUT I still ate the whole thing up ok.

Hehe.

WOOOHOO POTC OPENED ON FRI IN THE US WITH THE HIGHEST MOVIE GROSS OF ALL TIME OF 55 MILLION! EVEN HIGHER THAN STARWARS AND SPIDERMAN!!

Ok sorry.

Er where was I?

Went shopping with my parents before dinner for some stuff.

And I just woke up after a 2 hr nap.

Going to george's house now to catch the match later.

Okie better prepare liao I am super super late.

Night.

WHY IS RJ SO NIAO NO HOLIDAY ONE?!?!

Ooooh ooooh.

Today was pretty nice surprisingly.

Lol thankyew thankyew those classmates who bought tt bag for me.

Mk ahma waye gillian gil perry sy and lih.

Thanks a lot man.

And thanks to nic for making that nice bday cert for me.

And thanks to denise ben jared adriel lz and aaron for the card.

And for going to seoul garden just now to jiak peng until full full.

Lol watched the movie havoc with adriel and lz after tt.

Haha besides the excessive nudity, I felt pretty overwhelmed by the whole story by the time the credits rolled.

Dunno it just made me think so much bout how the teens nowadays rely on gangs, sex and drugs to make up for the emptiness and loneliness within them.

Which is damn sad la.

Anyway its my FIRST M18 movie so hurray!!

Lol Ann Hathaway(princess diaries) is pretty hot also hoho.

Ahhhh got dragged out by my pri sch classmates to go out now.

Quite tired alr tho.

Have been so ever since I woke up late this morning.

Aiyah nvm la but I dunno what they will do to me later =/

Ehhh okie gtg rush liao bye.

I always fail to accomplish what I set out to complete in many aspects of my life.

This is sad.

Tired.

Zzz.

=/

Heart dissection was real fun tho.

And zk's super hilarious as well.

Hai.

Lol mr chan was warning us against sth during bio prac and I looked at mk and burst out laughing.

Haha mk believe it or not I was the person who sent u that sms.

Sometimes theres really nth much to look forward to in life.

Not even ur bday.

How depressing lol.

人鱼的眼泪

透过窗舷你望着翦影一夜
爱上他在天与海的交界
你忍痛 用声音交换了双腿
只为走近爱的人身边

你赌上毁灭相信真爱会永远
不懂专情不适合人类
而你连 道别都没有人听见
黎明后随浪花凋谢

你的泪 一抹无邪
不属于这个冷漠的世界
舍弃了一切 只为一个能够
付出你真爱的机会

你的泪 一抹无邪
原来感情那么难以学会
他身边是谁 消失前后不后悔
你的悲伤是否像海 一样深邃

你赌上毁灭相信真爱会永远
不懂专情不适合人类
你最美的梦像泡沫般碎裂
剩童话里忧伤一页

你的泪 一抹无邪
不属于这个冷漠的世界
舍弃了一切 只为一个能够
付出你真爱的机会

[你的泪 一抹无邪
原来感情那么难以学会]
他身边是谁 消失前后不后悔
你的悲伤是否像海 一样深邃

Damn sleepy.

Jaded.

And my results are fucked.

Dunno.

Sometimes fate just plays tricks on us.

Stop now.

I dun wanna sound like an emo kid.

"Tempura, sushi, sashimiiiiiii!"

"Fujitsuuuu!"

Haha ok denise will know what I'm toking bout.

I was so tired tt I fell alseep on my bus and woke up like 8 busstops down.

Haha so ironic tt I'm currently trying to make 2 ppl feel better now when I'm not any different from them.

BUT.

Yeah u and u pls cheer up ba results are not the only thing tt truly matters in life.

Esp COMMON TEST results haha.

Aiyah screw everything la I wanna bed now night.

时间若倒退**南拳妈妈


有些话很可笑 给承诺又办不到

有些梦很微妙 醒来后却被洗掉

有些爱常迟到 来不及给拥抱

总来不及让你知道


有些事很荒谬 爱恨总在原地绕

有些人很无聊 明明寂寞装骄傲

有些爱在寻找 分不清谁重要

总分不清谁先为谁心跳


看那水平的线 绿色的边 平静的水面

有好多事浮现 吹皱我的从前 吹皱好多脸

记忆在播放留言 播放那年你说的再见

到底谁不听谁劝 到底那天你离开走多远

多久疲倦 多久不见


时间若倒退 想看见谁 想找回什么感觉

你听的音乐 泡的咖啡 我默背你的一切

你晒的棉被 特别好睡 有阳光回忆淡淡香味

当初为了小事争执谁对 将感情拖累 来不及给


时间若倒退 想看见谁 想找回什么感觉

你买的宵夜 送我的鞋 我重温你的那些

陪我逛的街 搭的地铁 是最初俩人小小世界

事后根本不重要的误会 让爱情后悔 来不及给

.

.

Superman was surprisingly quite good.

And carrefour's pizzas are still damn nice and cheap hoho.

Yeap what a great weekend man.

Seriously had tonnes of fun.

Time to go back to reality now.

Yeap night feel like sleeping soon.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0VOVmHVksA&mode=related&search=scary%20ghost%20videos

Haha I finally found the video which lz talked bout ytd after 2 hours.

Wooot.

Damn effing scary tho omg.

Beware.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=6072240911726979596

Wah shit damn scary la the video HAHA!

Wow.

Havent blogged in the longest time.

Haha cts have been damn draining la siann.

Haha the past june hols have been pretty good I guess.

Went for the batam cip trip.

Had my last band concert ever.

Mugged in school with damn fun people whom I must really thank for making my hols such an awesome one.

Thanks colin, george, huib in, yvonne, melo, perry, zhife ng.

Esp the first 3 people.

There was never one day with you guys tt I never laugh my ass off.

Regardless of the unproductive sessions due to cards or talking shit for a few hours or just sleeping.

Nice to know tt we were in it tgt.

Thank you thank you.

Haha now tt the !#$%^&*() cts are over.

The past weekend has been fun filled with stuff la for me.

Went to kbox with a few of my classmates immediately after math ct which was woot.

MK WHY U NEVER SING AT ALL?!?!

Lol and I had my hair cut with george which was a huge relief cause both of us got screwed by an indian teacher in the canteen hoho.

Went to jermyn's at night to play mahjong overnight with melvyn and beng oh.

Super funny people lei damn nice toking cock while playing also.

Hoho and I zimoed quite a few times so ended up winning 9 bucks =)

And we played naruto on the ps as well.

I was mother tired la went home to sleep at around noon n slept till bout 6 in the evening.

Met up with huib in melo and george at around 10 to catch the germany argentina match at liquid kitchen.

We had potato wedges fries 2 bottles of asahi and 1 long island tea and something else for hb cant rmb haha.

Ended up with zero cash lol damn funny must walk back to rj to withdraw money sia.

HAHA shit but I totally forgot tt there was still cash in the other compartment of my wallet for my brother's present felt damn bad later for making them walk and for george to withdraw money.

3 of them took shelter at my house after tt which was around 3 and we played cards till we fell alseep at 5 or 6.

Woke up for prata breakfast 2 hours later with yvonne joining us since she stayed quite near.

Lol and once again I slept for the rest of the morning.

Left for ben's bday chalet at around evening.

Denise adriel jared ching lingzi aaron and some of ben's classmates went.

Omg ben's mum can really prepare damn shiok food for bbq lei wth.

She's super shen.

Lol we were watching the retelecast of singapore idol in the chalet and were laughing at the contestants quite funny.

DENISE = SI EW HOON LOLOLOL!

Omg at around 12 someone switched off the lights and it was really crazy cause everyone was throwing stuff like lightsticks, pillows and plastic cups at each other.

Which turned into a war.

Wahh I really laughed until stomachache omg it was damnnn funny la.

Really sjb lei 18 year olds somemore.

After tt we all zhaoed the chalet to walk to 711 at the pasir ris interchange to grab alcohol.

Lol and lz was telling ghost stories on the way and she ended up scary herself LOL.

Sat at the beach at around 3 just talking nonsense and playing retarded games.

Went back to the chalet and one by one we started to collapse in exhaustion.

But we still managed to squeeze in a few rounds of swap and 99.

And lol the national anthem was playing at 6am exactly.

Rushed off to family lunch after checking out at 10 plus.

And I slept from 2 to 6 just now.

Hehe.

Class outing tml woooot cant wait going kbox pool lan.

Wah I think I go out too much.

But hey its really the LAST LAST LAST LAST chance to play before the As.

And tmd I havent watched scary movie 4 who wanna watch??

Wah dunno why I'm still quite tired.

My brother's leaving for australia very soon.

Lol actually I didnt expect myself to be as sad as I am right now.

Dunno lei I always take him for granted but at the end of the day he's still always there for me.

And he's a good older brother la.

Gonna miss him so badly.

=/

Ohoh and I realy like chu lian fen se xi by nqmm its super nice la.

Pls go download everyone.

Ok I think I'll go sleep soon liao.

Night.