Finally.

I snapped out of the shit world I drenched myself into for the whole week.

Had been incredibly bitter bout the whole uni thing.

And so depressed and lost bout what to do.

Its literally like I fell into a manhole and I know exactly how to get out of it but I'm so damn bloody stunned that I just stone there.

Doesnt help one bit that one of my bunkmates got it.

But thankfully he has been sensitive enough to not mention it around me.

On the outside I just pretend that everything's alright and continue with my everyday work.

But inside I just felt blank and like shit.

I blame myself.

I blame God.

My faith just sank for some reason.

On thurs night while walking back to our campsite after a loooonng day during our fieldcamp.

It was a long walk and it was damn dark so I could not see much.

Only my own footsteps.

Suddenly the hallelujah song from the bennyhinn conference came into my head.

I began singing it in my head.

And tears started rolling down my face but noone could see it cause it was pitch black.

Felt incredibly sorry for just being angry at God.

For obstacles like this.

Remembered how the holy spirit touched me during that song in that conference.

And I began to feel the same holy spirit comforting me that everything's gonna be fine.

More tears started rolling down.

Dunno.

No matter how unsure I am of my future and what courses I'm gonna take.

I know that it will be the best choice for me.

Really.

And I hope u'll feel the same way too if things are not going your way.

Good luck.

On a brighter note.

IM FREAKING PASSING OUT FROM MY FREAKING BSLC COURSE THIS WED WHICH ROCKS.

Ok gtg now book in bye.

Cya everyone on wed HAHA.

Pirates anyone?